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Gail (35-H-5) FPE

This is from a TV of long understanding but who only recently became aware of the existence of Trans- vestia and FPE. She applied only a few weeks ago for acceptance in the sorority and awaits the decision.

All of us love feminine clothing. If we didn't we most certainly would not be cross-dressers into their lovely attire. There may be many other factors which enter into our full personality expression, but you could never divorce dresses and beautiful lingerie from a TV any more than you could a beard from Frederick Barbarossa and still have the essent- ial product.

But this girl wonders further--down deep and everything else being equal, would't we really want to be a girl, if that were possible? I am a realist and know that I never could be, by wishing by surgery, or by anything but a miracle which isn't going to happen. I am a man and I accept that side of me and very often enjoy being one because I know this real- ization is the only practical one. Almost daily and for periods as long as feasible, I dress like, act like, feel like and look like a girl. The joy that I receive from this never grows old but even stronger as the days go on. I am careful and realize that I must exercise due surveillance on the circumstances of the hour but I never feel guilt or shame in any of these transformations or even in habitually wear- ing panties under my male attire. Incidentally I do wear panties or a panty girdle at all times. Except for a couple of pairs of male shorts, which I must

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